Scared out of my mind

About that whole pregnancy scare. I'm gonna pretend that never happened. Not a big deal. Here's the thing, I have reason to believe that if I don't talk to her, she won't talk to me, and it will all be gravy. I'm not abandoning my unborn child, or if they're twins, "children", it's really more like I'm running away from her craziness. There's just no negotiating. It's scary to think that she wants to take all my money. Horrible even. I'm scared to death. I'd like to think that it just isn't happening, but I don't know if my plan will work. Also, I feel as though my brain has been molded in a bad way by porn. I can't stop looking at porn, my ex is pregnant, and I may have tracked bedbugs into this brand new apartment, and I can barely afford to survive. And I'm expected to get all A's. Things are pretty fucked up right now. There's got to be a bright side. There just has to be. Is this the kind of thing that everyone goes through in life?