I figured it out. I am a people pleaser. I hear it's a bit of a personality disorder. Everyone has something wrong with them. I can't quite figure out where mine stems from though. I can't blame others for using me though. I just have to stand up for myself every once in awhile is all. People need to stop messing with me. It's strange to think that this is one of those addictions that you can't quit altogether without there being negative consequences. If I shut everyone out of my life, I will be this horrible person who will never amount to anything. On the other hand, if I do things for people at the expense of my own personal well being, I'm destroying myself. I have to realize that I am the problem. The greatest people in the world tend to sabotage themselves in one way or another. The bottom line for me is that I just want to be happy.
Which brings me to the question of what makes me happy? Same kinds of shit that makes everyone else happy: good food, sex, drugs, rock and roll. But there is one main thing that makes me different. I think it has something to do with helping people. If I know that what I do for a living makes a difference, I think I will be satisfied. I have to work on that one. :)
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