Girls That Drop Off the Face of the Earth

Writing in a journal helps keep one's mental health in tact. There are studies and things that prove it. It doesn't matter too much though. I need people in my life. I can't seem to focus, so this whole post is going to sound a bit funny. I was talking to this girl on a dating site, and yes I'm getting that whole butterfly feeling that you get when you talk to someone cute. But like I was saying in an earlier post, all these gurus who think that they're the masters at fucking hot chicks forget to mention the "fade out". This can't possibly be some one off phenomenon that only happens to me. For instance, I'll talk to a girl, the conversation is going well for a few days, hell even a few weeks, then the messages get farther apart, and she just sort of fades out until eventually, she drops off the face of the earth. Now, I have no problem picking the conversation back up, but am I boring? Does that mean that I only talk about myself? I'm a little scared that my ego is taking over my ability to find and keep a girl that I deem is good enough for me. I can have any relationship I want with girls that just flaunt their pussys around, but I don't want that. I want a girl that I have to woo. At least a little bit. One who's not young and retarded, or old and loose. It seems that there is a very, very small window between young and retarded, and old with 5 kids. I prefer mature enough to have had a good amount of sex, but not too dumb as to have had five or more kids, and not know who the father is. Oh yes, and not a crack addict. Is this really to much to ask for?!