get some sunshine

So, maybe my last post wasn't that great, but still this whole journal thing is more for my personal feelings than for anyone else. I often wonder if the things that I write even make sense. I learned something else today: I'm addicted to technology. I also wonder to myself how many people have this exact same problem. It's like I can not go a day without turning my computer off. I used to think in the past that I was addicted to porn, but now I know that if I'm not around my computer, I wouldn't be looking at nearly as much porn, so I know it's not that. When I was on vacation, I couldn't really download anything on my mom's computer, and she didn't have much of a wifi signal. I get it now though. Technology addiction is a real thing, and it's starting to affect my daily life. It's affecting me in ways like being sad, and moody as fuck. today I just wasn't feeling too good. I know I can sit down and meditate, but I need that computer timer to tell me when to stop. Watching movies, t.v. shows, porn, and my life are all a part of this big digital cloud, and I need it to stop. I need to go out and meet people. I don't even know how. I almost want to reach out, and ask how many people have this same problem? I've often heard that you can substitute one addiction for another, but I don't know what I'd want to do instead of being on the computer. I know, that's pretty bad. If anyone out there is reading this, I'd like to know what to do. I thought about taking an addiction course, but I imagine it wouldn't help if it were online. Maybe I should just go out and get some sunshine...