What does being bored mean? Does it mean that everything around you is as good as it's going to get? Does it mean that you have a second or two to relax? I don't know that it does. To me, it means daydreaming. I've been thinking about what I would do if I had a job as a translator. Easy, mindless, but tough work. So, I'd have a job, and that's great and all, but then what? Could I somehow bring about attention to the fact that I was raped in California, but now I'm being forced to pay for it? Would it matter if I did?
Bringing attention to a cause is all fine and dandy, but how does such a thing change it? Even if I were famous or something, could I change the reality that society overlooks the fact that men can be raped by women? And assuming I have a job where I can build up the money to pay off all this child support, isn't it just a little fucked up that I may never see this child?
What would be the best way to get justice in this situation? Hire someone to kill Shannon? That would cost equal to, if not more than, just paying the child support in the first place. If she dies of natural causes, and I somehow get full custody of this kid, I'm going to let my lesbian friends adopt him. Just saying.
So what would I do with a job, and money? How could I pay for justice with that money? I'll buy my son a house! Brilliant. Does one really buy justice though? It's hard to determine that. My idea is to fix my life and let him see how great things can be, and what a horrible shitty person his mom is in comparison.
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