How single guys think about women

Thinking about my life. If I had the steady stream of income that I'm about to have, I want to imagine who I would be happiest sharing my life with. Would it be my current lesbian girlfriend? Would I somehow encourage Kelly to fall in love with me, ditch Shaun, come live with Miranda and I, then get married? I somehow think that is possible, but I feel like I would be fucking over Shaun. I mean, he's a cool guy. Would I choose Kristi, whom I feel is a good person at heart, but went down the wrong life path? I suppose I feel the same way about Andrea, though. They both have bad teeth. That's the sign of a drug user, bad teeth. Ah yes, and let's not forget Emily in Idaho. Fuck Idaho. Would I be able to talk her into moving to Florida? Probably not.

Let's say I chose.....my Victoria. She is sort of my current girl. So what then? Do I trust her? Sarah on the other hand, not as good looking, but certainly more sane. I feel like I'm pushing just to talk to her though. Theoretically, Sarah is the best and safest option here, although Kelly would make sense if she weren't pretty much married. I know I couldn't pull her away from Shaun. They're on the cusp of getting married. I'm friends with them both. They would be the best couple to hang with if Kat were still around. Hell, I wouldn't want anyone if she were still around. Only her. I'd probably be married right now.

But now I'm stuck in this awkwardness of finding a woman. Or third option here, should I go on POF and search for a new girl altogether? Fourth option: psycho Shannon. Ha! that shit will never happen. So, I've narrowed it down. Sarah, Kelly, or Victoria. How 'bout this option: You get your shit together, then look for a woman. Or, you can get your shit together, move in with Victoria, and start a family. That seems like a mistake though. Kelly really is the perfect woman, so I think I want to get my shit together, talk to her, then let her be my inspiration to find a perfect match. Because ideally, you want a girl just like her. (cute, nerdy, wants to start a business, likes babies enough to know how to take care of them but is not psycho about it, and SINGLE!) That's the only issue. That last piece of the puzzle. That's ok though, Kelly is inspirational, cause you know there's a single version of her out there somewhere.