Tired of stress and elbows.

Stress is the trigger that makes us do things that we don't want to do. It sounds so obvious when it's written down. So yea, you can try to replace your bad habits with better ones. You can stave off things that you think are bad. But when the stress hits, you are out of the game. Been up since 4 this morning. It makes my head hurt just thinking about it. I really hope though, to be able to get some sleep later today. Waking up early would be fine, if I could go to bed early as well. Maybe caffeine is the answer? Sometimes when I decide to stay awake, I get tired a few hours later.

The problem is, I'm going to have to be awake in order to help with a group project today at 9:00. I don't want to. It's a class I'm failing, the tests are impossible, and I'm struggling through it. Pushing, and grinding, and digging through a class where everyone treats me like shit. Maybe I should have kept on flirting with that bitch in Marine Biology. If I never mentioned how old I was, I would be the coolest guy in my group. But, no, I had to have respect for my girl friend, and say "it is not appropriate to be flirting with me." That's all fine, but now my girlfriend is treating me like garbage. Sorry I made a phone call at a time that you deemed inappropriate. That's not a reason to walk into our room, and elbow me in the face at 4:30 in the morning. It's just not. Shit.

Prioritize your Frogs

I know a big theme of all these blogs tends to be focus. It's important though. There is no way for me to concentrate on a specific task sometimes. I have at least five thoughts going through my head right now, so I figure I should list them. One, just watched a video about asexuality, and realized one of my ex's falls under this category and doesn't even realize it. Two, I need to do something different to Bryan's site, so that I have something to show him on Wednesday. Three, I have a paper to write for sociology. Four, There are multiple projects that I'd like to be working on. Five, I could do something crazy, and rush out to the Department of Revenue to turn in some paperwork, but the question after that is: will I have another metaphorical frog to eat tomorrow? So, how do I prioritize? I think I'll google it. I don't know that a list would help, as it's all a mental thing. Wish me luck!

Enjoying the Process

I'm considering making music videos for a bunch of songs. The earlier one starts, the faster the project will get done. Here's the issue. Bryan is a perfectionist. I can't just throw some shit together, and hope for the best. So, what do I do? I want to sign up for a site where I can sell things for cheap, but at what cost? I want something brilliantly affordable. How do I even market this stuff? So many questions as far as where to start. Apparently though, that is the wrong question. You can't go around in life asking the wrong questions.

Other things that are on my mind, would include: Biology homework. I mean what's the most important thing that I could be doing right now? Supposedly, everyone has this sort of problem at one point or another. I don't want to be the guy who winds up leaning my ladder against the wrong building. Metaphorically speaking. I think I may have done that already though. So maybe it doesn't matter, as long as you enjoy yourself in the process? I think this is a reasonable solution. Please tell me that that is the answer to all of life's problems. Enjoying the process.