Sluts

Getting back into the groove of going to school. And you know what? I don't much care for it. There is one thing that I do like though, and that's talking to all these gorgeous girls. I was walking to math class, and lucky for me, I found someone who knew where the new math building was. She was amazing. She was like an angel that floated down from heaven, with this tight sexy ass that I just want to grab, and stick my face between her butt cheeks. But I digress. I got her name, number, and all that good stuff, but the thing is, sometimes I feel like I could get all the phone numbers in the world, but after that first initial contact, it's like things fade out. The books that proclaim to teach you how to sleep with any woman you want only seem to give you enough information to get their phone number. They somehow forget to mention that once you get it, and you call the girl, that she doesn't always call back. I know I can't be the only guy who has this problem. Like how long do I wait to call her? It's been my experience to wait about a day. I don't want to seem desperate, and call her three hours after she gave me her number. I imagine that sort of neediness turns women off. So, I wait a day, call, and one of 2 things happen: 1: She doesn't answer, I leave a message, and never hear from her again. or 2. She doesn't answer, and I get an "I'm busy" text. If option 2 happens (as it did with the girl I met on the way to math class) Then do I text her back? or do I wait for awhile, and call again? I texted back, and subsequently set up a meeting time. I expect this "date" to go well, however, where do we go from here? Honestly, I don't know enough about her. I don't even know if she's single! I know better than to ask, simply because that information is not important to me. I mean, if she had a boyfriend, would that stop me from being attracted to her?! Fuck no. As for where things go from here, I will keep you updated. :)

One thing at a Time

By jove, I've got it! People can only do one thing at a time. I know that sounds ridiculous, but when I started making new habits, I basically started with a list. I now see that this is the wrong way about it. I'm not saying that I can't discipline myself to do everything that I want to turn into a habit in one day. But the thing is, if you do it that way, it won't stick. For instance, I actually went out and talked to some hot chicks the other day. Two to be exact, but it was still a confidence booster. Did I get anything else done? Not really. I wrote a new poem, but it was on paper, and I need it on my computer if I want to get it published one day. I don't know for sure, but I don't think that publishers accept small scraps of paper with scribbles all over them. Anyway, my one habit for the month is to re-type my poetry. I suppose one per day should be just fine. When I have a thousand pages worth, I may just submit it to a publisher. I mean, who knows?

Porn, Sore Muscles, and Songwriting Lessons

It's early. I like to write early sometimes. It puts my mind at ease. What I don't like however, is that when I'm sitting at the computer, I get distracted. Yes, I watch too much porn for my own good. But whatever. Does it make me a sick person? Maybe. Do I care? Not really. I know I can't be the only one who's muscles hurt the way mine do in the mornings. I'm fucking 27 years old. Supposedly that's young, but damn! What is going on with that? Good news though, I think I might possibly know what I want to do for a living. Yea, I'm going to be a free lance songwriting instructor. The course is not only going to show people how to write their own music, but how to market it and all that good stuff as well. I think I'll have video lessons to offer on my website as well. And, I'm going to offer to re-design Bryan's website for free. Because let's be honest, his site sucks. Seriously, my mom could do better. I don't know why he doesn't hire her. It blows my mind. I don't even know if I want to give him any credit on here, because his website sucks so bad. But I should, considering he's a huge influence on my music. So if someone actually reads this, you should go on over to: www.bryanrivers.com Soon to be re-designed by me.

42 goals

I find it hard to talk to people. There, I said it. I want to be able to talk to people not just online, but in real life. I made it one of my habits. You see, I signed up with this site called 42 goals, and the brilliance of this set up is not that they're goals, it's really more about developing habits. So the domain name of the site is entirely misleading, but that's not a big deal to me. It's like if you miss a day or two, the world is not going to end. I think anyone reading this should check it out. It's I hope that showed up as a link. Anyway, I have seven habits set up on there right now, and I have yet to do them all in one day, but I'm finding that it is important for me to talk to people. It would be nice to have friends. My relationships are going well right now, but everyone I know lives so damn far away! It kind of hurts. I was also thinking that I might just pack up all my stuff and move to Seattle. Doesn't that sound cool? Or maybe New Orleans. It's all good. Somewhere where the people are friendly. I bet people in Colorado are friendly. I have no idea, but the language barrier here in California, is going to be the death of me. If I don't learn to speak spanish soon, I think I'm going to fall into a depression, again.

Take Action

This is going to sound a bit unusual, but I think that I write these things just to make me feel like I'm productive. I've been thinking about it a bit, and I don't know if I'd be really happy if all I was doing for a living was sitting around and giving webcam guitar lessons to people. What would make me happy I think, would to be with people that I love. I get a bit lonely out here, as I don't know anyone. I have tons of acquaintances, but no real friends. It's enough to drive someone insane. Or at least make them mentally sick. It kind of hurts, but you know, I think I can get solace after I finish college. I never want a real job, I know this for sure. But what pisses me off is the fact that goals never make a person happier. I don't exactly know what does, but I know it's not setting goals. The thrill of achieving a goal only lasts a few days at most, then it's back to the old grinding block. So what does make a person happy? Besides sex, Coffee, and good food, I believe it's friendship, friends, and family that have the biggest impact. Helping people is my calling in life. I can do that well. I don't need a degree to teach people how to write some music, or better themselves in some small way. I know this would make me happy. In the end, do I want to move back to Florida? Now that I think about it, it's time to stop making plans, and act on what I have. Because nothing will get done if you don't take action.

Thoughts on my Future

I'm starting to think that this might turn out to be a self help kind of blog. Not that there's anything wrong with that, but I have so many damn ideas, I think that the best way to deal with this kind of thing is to just go with it. Go with the flow, right? I took a bit of a walk last night to think about where I want my life to go, and instantly i kept thinking about ways that I could make money. There are just so many of them. And I know this is a trap, because in order to stick with any one of these methods, you have to love it. If you're not passionate about it, you won't stick with it, and if you don't stick with whatever it is that's making you money, you might as well give up, because you'll be attracted to the next shiny object that you see. The next big venture, and so on, and so on, forever. With that being said, there are only a few things that I love. One is music, and two is creative marketing. I definitely want to start a home based business, but no one in their right mind is going to take me seriously if I can't prove my credentials. Yes, that's kind of what I'm getting my degree for, but I personally think that experience is way more important than any bull shit piece of paper that said that you went to school for a few years. I'll tell you one thing: college hasn't taught me a damn thing. And I just got a phone call that de-railed my train of thought...so I'm going to go ahead and end this post. Bye Y'all!

Progress

So, someone viewed my post. I'm kind of happy about that. I feel so lost though. It's like I don't want to sit here in front of the computer all day. This sort of behavior simply can not be healthy. Writing, and jogging around the park every once in awhile helps, but then I end up right back here doing the same old thing again.

School is starting in a week and a half, and it's slowly getting warmer outside. So there are some good things happening. I'm starting to think that I should set some goals. Like push myself a bit, to accomplish more in life. That's always kind of nice, right?

Now that I think about it, this all looks very similar to a blog that I did like 2 years ago. Maybe spring is the time to be productive? I certainly hope that's the case. It's only eleven A.M., and I'm already starting to go crazy. Maybe I should call someone. Get a girlfriend, who doesn't suck away my money. Little things like that might make me happy.

My former room mate/ex-girlfriend makes me upset. She steals from me, and then justifies it by saying that it's my last ex-girlfriends fault. How does this sort of thing make any sense?! Here I am, twittling my thumbs, and I feel like life is wasting away. What else can I do?! I will figure something out. I'll keep you, my loyal fan updated on my progress.

One Thing at a Time

So, it is said that geniuses put out a lot of material. Now whether that body of work is well received by the public or not, is a different story. I think I put out a lot of work, and it seems to me that sometimes, I got things to say that I can't get published anywhere else, so I decided to start another blog on here. I got like three blogs going on here, but no one reads them. I have finally come to the conclusion that I am okay with that. It's kind of silly to promote something if you're happy just writing it. I kind of figure that if it's good, it will all work out fine. I'm not one to really care if I'm super famous or not. I just do what I like, and that's really how it should be.

Although, it wouldn't be bad to be paid for this sort of work. You know, writing and creating. I think I will do a bit of marketing when it comes to my music. But this is more of a blog to state what's on my mind. I don't give a fuck if I fall within a particular niche, or catagory. It's just going to be nice for me to look back at this body of work, and hey, some of it might actually be interesting for other people to read one day. I just have to remember, that I can only do one thing at a time, and right now, it's writing this, and after I do this I have to clean up my apartment, and maybe I might get laid. I love getting me some pussy. Well, crap. I guess that's all I got to say for right now. I hope someone out there is looking forward to my next post. Peace out, ya'll.